When I was a young kid I remember riding with my dad to school in the T bucket. I thought He was the coolest guy on planet earth. I fell in love with mini bikes hot rods and wanting to shine like him. Its crazy how you can love care cherish look up to your own father and never once have i ever felt I was even someone he looks forward to see. I dont need to share my problems , I just aint scared and think its time that someone speaks up about Fathers who think they are so great but the truth is they are selfish, heartless , and have no shame in showing respect to the lowest of low before there own children who spill there hearts out to him. I ended up hangin with bad friends in my early teens which later turned into a pill addiction. An i am aware of the whole i made my own choices. But how many days would your mentallly suffer inside knowing something you could take would make you feel happy for a short while. At a early age you dont know any better just want to fill the dark hole inside. Most people think drug users just are lazy and wana party but it comes from a co occuring mental issue in many different forms. I dont want kids becasue I believe since I am the Last Male to have the option to let the COKINOS NAME LIVE ON.... Well l would never give a family of such lowness a chance to let there name live on if it means im lonley and single forever becuase I rather be that way than have another kid ever come in this world to feel the way i did. My dad was handed so much money from his fathers properties including my aunts and uncles on that side. I couldnt stand going to family functions watchig these fake people shine in there expensive cars and clothes and i never hated on anyone. I just hated that me and my sister were simply never included in anything period. Instead we were blessed with a AMAZING mother that never had much to give us but always did what she could and her genuine love which is most import no one could top her Love. My dad later remarried a woman that he once told my sister that he could never marry her because she doesnt love his kids. well they got married, An its no suprise my aunts on my dads side and almost all the cousins talk down on me and my sister, My dad knows and has never defended us but of course thats his income and without his daddys money he would have to had worked a job. smh.... I mean when u hear your dad say to you in your face he is leaving me and my sisters real home that we lived in untill my parents divorced to make sure his new wife has a place to live. An its shocks me he is so worried about a woman over his kids mainly from his previous wife my mother. I have held so much in and I feel that making sure everyone sees this will make me proud. When you try your hardest to do right get off the bad habbits and sucseed and your own father has more than enouff money reources to help you create a busness or something along those lines. That still involves hard work and dedication that I am capable off but in his eyes im looking for a hand out. I guess when I walk in his home and see the furniture that cost as much as a car that no one uses or would even want use because its so nice only stuck up heartless tyoes could relate so u know that aint flyin with me. I will never in my life disrespect my dad i would jump in front of bullet right after i post this if i had to becuase i was born with a good heart. I guess some just are different. I hope some who reads this at least understands how us kids think with our parnets and maby some parents might make some changes that willl prevent there kid up 8am wondering why day after day min after min seconds to so many years still wondering why one could ever bring a child in to this world if he didnt intend on doing everything in his power to help him grow and sucseed. Forgive my spelling i been up all night thinking about My dad and its been going on a long time. When I recently knew for sure his true colors I would call say hey dad are you busy ima come by . but when you get there he say my uber is almost here gotta cut it short Tommy is taking me drink beers and eat crabs. Last eye opener that really made things clear was when Tommy threw him a suprise party and i never even knew or was invited. So the fact my dad can live happy knowing that didnt bother him shows everything i needed to verify this wasnt my fault all this time. Last but not LEAST God blessed me with a mother that is a true Angel.
Delete if not allowed You can remove me to but I I cant stand seing how many fathers actually look foward to and enjoy working on mini bikes and hot rods together that my case must be rare because i can do the work my father just has no interest in bonding. So I feel that if a father spent his life raising his kids to ride mini bike and play with slot cars and real cars. Well the son is going to think His dad is his role model. I made my rolemodel a mistake becuase it only leaves you with the fact you only were taught to play . You cant be learning how to live a independent life if your raised by somone who was giving everything. House More money than u can think of from his daddy. While i cant get a ahead enough to pursue any dreams. I feel if one of your parents has to much money handed down that if he didnt prepare his son for college life or school life . He could at least for example help buy his son a car to re sell. together a few times once i sell a couple he get his moeny paid in full and I can actually make something happen in life. DOnt get me wrong i will do it my self sooner or later. But I dont get invited to his birthdays he never spend christmas with me or my sister. I hate to vent here but i feel like im owed to be able to say how I feel at the least. Whats more general anyways? I woud be woking up at 9pm to go street drag racing ona middle school night. An he has the nerve to blame me for chasing a exciting life style. Life sux with out a dad thatmakes u feel appriciated so where ever this leads. Im ready for it. It can get no worse. Its too bad JimmyC I would die for you but your just mean disrespectful and hurtful, and you deff dont lead by examples like you always tell me I should do. I'm just happy God is my real Father.
Delete if not allowed You can remove me to but I I cant stand seing how many fathers actually look foward to and enjoy working on mini bikes and hot rods together that my case must be rare because i can do the work my father just has no interest in bonding. So I feel that if a father spent his life raising his kids to ride mini bike and play with slot cars and real cars. Well the son is going to think His dad is his role model. I made my rolemodel a mistake becuase it only leaves you with the fact you only were taught to play . You cant be learning how to live a independent life if your raised by somone who was giving everything. House More money than u can think of from his daddy. While i cant get a ahead enough to pursue any dreams. I feel if one of your parents has to much money handed down that if he didnt prepare his son for college life or school life . He could at least for example help buy his son a car to re sell. together a few times once i sell a couple he get his moeny paid in full and I can actually make something happen in life. DOnt get me wrong i will do it my self sooner or later. But I dont get invited to his birthdays he never spend christmas with me or my sister. I hate to vent here but i feel like im owed to be able to say how I feel at the least. Whats more general anyways? I woud be woking up at 9pm to go street drag racing ona middle school night. An he has the nerve to blame me for chasing a exciting life style. Life sux with out a dad thatmakes u feel appriciated so where ever this leads. Im ready for it. It can get no worse. Its too bad JimmyC I would die for you but your just mean disrespectful and hurtful, and you deff dont lead by examples like you always tell me I should do. I'm just happy God is my real Father.
